Ben Peek (benpeek) wrote,
Ben Peek

I Should've Become that Dentist My Parents Always Wanted

Yesterday I got a call from the new director of Gerric, telling me my workshop was cancelled for January. It was the second time, and it no longer looks like a reliable injection of cash in January, which is a shame. That cash makes a nice bridging amount for the bills that hit round February and March, when I'm just getting tutoring back up to full.

There were some reasons given, which in hindsight leave me questions, but it's neither here nor there; the program as a whole has been bleeding students, and I had some hassle last time I ran it, which probably means that it is time to move on and find something new. Unfortunately, I have to find that now, which is a hassle, given that I have the Summer holidays coming up, and I'm now officially running on fumes for the next month and a half. To be honest, it's not been the best year for cash, but it was my first year of running my own show completely, and I was too lax where I shouldn't have been, and I didn't push the openings when I had them. Probably this applies to writing as much as it does the teaching that I do, but I was kind of sick of the business of writing this year and I feel as if I took a lot of time out from it. I wrote Beneath the Red Sun and then kind of wandered off for a while. With any luck the book will sell shortly, though it seems the moment that I finished it, America's economy went to the shit, and everything is taking longer than I had hoped. Realistically speaking, for an author of my position, the economy woes translates into cautious buying, less cash on the offer, and a whole host of knock on effects that I just don't want to think too much about, because, lets face it, there's really nothing I can do about it. It impacts on the teaching as well, though in different ways, and probably less than the first. Education, fortunately, is one of the things that people don't like to skimp cash on. Well, at least the people that I see don't.

I'm not making this post to bitch, or complain. I make my choices. I just feel that blogging about it makes it a little more interesting, and people tell me they enjoy hearing opinions that aren't all sunshine and sparkles.

You might be wondering what this all means for me, and it's a change, whatever that might be. Big or little, the year will figure it out, and so will I. I'm hoping that the writing will start pulling some of its weight financially, but if it doesn't, then the teaching will likely switch into something different or new.

You know, life would be a lot simpler if I lived in the Smurf Village.


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