However, the conflict between cash and interest is a common thing. A friend of mine who works as a journalist used to write fiction, but has given it up, mostly due to the fact that she spends a whole week writing for newspapers, and the last thing she wants to do when she gets home is write more. She had a whole lot more ability than me, too, and it's a shame, but that's how it is at times, and every now and then she talks about books she'd like to write.
It may not sound like it, but the choice not to work like that is a business one, since as an author, I tend to believe that you're running your own little business. It's the business of self, of the work you produce, and like with every other business, you have to decide where and how you want your work to appear, who you want to work with, and how you want to conduct yourself, and so on and so forth. Someone once told me it was branding. Sometimes, it doesn't all work out, and you have your fuck ups, and there are up and down periods. I'm not trying to convince you that it's the way to be successful, and that it always works--take a look at last week--but it's how I work through the day to day stuff, and make the decisions I do. However, what's interesting to me is that, since starting up the tutoring business, for which I've discovered a surprising amount of demand, I've applied the same kind of outlook to how I run that. For example, I won't tutor anyone who doesn't want to do the work. They don't have to love the work--that I can live with, and for the most part, I figure most don't love the work. But if you're actively not doing it, or you hate every moment, I'm just not going to bother.
I had one of those kids last night. He was likable enough, but didn't want to be there. He had canceled his first week, and I figure that'll be the trend.
"I heard him turn down someone tonight," D said a couple of weeks back, when he was up from Melbourne, and to which J said, "I heard the same thing a month ago!"
The joke around my friends is all they hear me do is turn down work, you see. It's a nice position to be in, especially since at the end of the year, I think it's going to dry right the fuck up, and I'll be reliant on the workshop cash I can make through the Xmas break.