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No, this is not another letter meme, but since I began with the letter A, I thought I'd just keep going until I got bored with it. That will probably be somewhere round tomorrow or the the letter F.

Bunya Mountains - The Bunya Mountains were a place I spent some time at last year. It was okay, but I found all that wildlife to be, well, disturbing. Don't people know that non-domesticated animals belong in cages? Still, as much as that was disturbing, what has come after it is even moreso. I speak, of course, of Rjurik Davidson's (rjurikdavidson) unrequited love towards me. I was unaware of it until recently, when Rju began expressing this love by posting a seemingly unending supply of photos of me on his blog. Some people might ask, why no photos of Kaaron Warren? Why not more photos of Andrew Macrea (andrewmacrae) or Deborah Biancotti (deborahb) or even, though he isn't nearly as good looking as me, Chris Lawson?

The answer, of course, is love. I don't mind. I'm currently writing to Rjurik requesting to borrow money.

Bullshit - What are you looking at me like that for? It begins with a B.

Benjamin, Walter - There is something about failed genius that appeals to me. At the top of my pile of failures are Orson Welles and this man, Walter Benjamin, who killed himself, quite tragically. For you see, apparently, he fled from France towards the Spanish border, getting the jump on the Nazis. In poor health, Benjamin didn't fair well, and when, at the border, he and the others were told that they could not cross, Benjamin killed himself that night. The next morning, when his body was discovered, the border guards let the others cross, for nothing says desperation more than a dead man. The true tragedy of it, however, is that had he left a few days earlier, or a few days later, he would have crossed without incident. Still, what remains is a body of work that is mostly fragments, ideas, things that could have become something truly unique. Instead, we have only shadows now.

Basquiat, Jean-Michel - "Believe it or not, I can actually draw." - Jean-Michel Basquiat

Yet, you know, I like it anyway.

Burgess, Anthony - Burgess wrote one of my favourite books, A Clockwork Orange. I absolutely hate the film. It's such a shallow thing that reminds me of bad seventies porn. I'm not quite sure how anyone thought to ban it, or why, why oh why, Kubrick didn't include anything from the final chapter. Actually, you know, now that I think about it, I'm not a huge Kubrick fan. I don't like any of his films with reservation. Still, this entry is about Burgess, but you know something, I've only read that one book. I must change this soon.

Beasts of Bourbon - My favourite album this year is, without a doubt, is Low Life, a live album released by the Beasts of Bourbon. If you don't have this, you need it.

Books - Well, this one is unsurprising, isn't it? But seriously, even now, I love the physical side of books. The weight, the feel, the whole thing. Some days, I think that if I didn't have this love, I might not be writing prose. They aren't many days, mind you, and they're usually the days when I get a really nice book.

Black Sheep - Is the name of the novel I have written and which will be published by Prime. Outside that, however, I recently heard that Ba Ba Black Sheep has been changed to Ba Ba Rainbow Sheep. So maybe I'll write a sequel called Rainbow Sheep, and in it, everyone will be happy, and multiculturalism will be embraced, and everything will be right in the world. In fact, here's the book now:

It was day. Everything was good. Thanks for buying.

Ben Peek - My name. This is who I am known as, for better or worse, until I am forced to change it for the obvious legal reasons.

Blog - And you have been reading Ben Peek's blog.


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May. 5th, 2006 01:13 pm (UTC)
I believe Kubrick didn't film the final chapter because he hadn't read it. There was something weird going on with different versions being published in the US and the UK, or somesuch.
May. 5th, 2006 10:05 pm (UTC)
i heard that they took the final chapter off the book after the film was released. that was the states version of it. but anyhow, maybe you're right bout kubrick. still.
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May. 5th, 2006 10:03 pm (UTC)
i'm hoping that rju has a secret cache of photos where you're sleeping. sure, it'd be weird, but it wouldn't be me...

you know, i haven't read that benjamin essay. i got into him for the essay stuff, so i've read the flanuer things, and one way street, and the autobriographical stuff and a few other bits of pieces. good stuff, but sad when you think might have gone on to do more. perhaps even own some nick cave albums, though i doubt it.

that's funny though.
May. 5th, 2006 06:00 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad someone else is being strange enough to go down the alphabet.

I'm up to E. Will be going on shortly....
May. 5th, 2006 09:58 pm (UTC)
i figure i'll give up way before e.
May. 5th, 2006 07:29 pm (UTC)
Please tell me you made that up about Ba Ba Rainbow Sheep.

May. 5th, 2006 09:57 pm (UTC)


though i may have made it sound worse than it actually is. however, every now and then, it does seem that some group gets up in arms about the black sheep thing.
May. 6th, 2006 01:15 am (UTC)
Wow. That's...that's...very inclusive.
May. 5th, 2006 11:08 pm (UTC)
Don't really agree with your assessment of Benjamin - I think his body of work is more substantial, more solid, more lasting than you claim (did you read the Berman article I put up a link to on my blog? Whaddya reckon?) Oh, and course I love you. Course. It's tough love, no doubt, but hey. Goes without saying....(seriously though, I could take down those photos of you...if you want)

May. 6th, 2006 04:41 am (UTC)
Re: Benjamin
you are porbably right in that it's more lasting than i think it should have been--it's still around, and there's a huge body of work around it now, so there's not real way it'll be disappearing now. indeed, i think much of the attraction to benjamin is the work surrounding it, and the way it has drawn others into it. but i still find it incomplete--perhaps if i hadn't waded through THE ARCADES PROJECT, and saw all the notes, all the ideas, all the things that could have been, i might find it more complete. but i can only look at that book and just see allt he stuff that was missed.

still, that's not to say he didn't contribute anything, for he did. rather, he failed to live up to that promise (failed to live, one could say). orson welles is the comparison, because he began so strongly, and made such interesting things, but in the end, he failed to live up to that early promise. which is not to say that his body of work, like benjamin's, isn't filled with interesting things, and substantial things, but just that it could have been so much more.

as for the photos, it's cool. they don't bother me. i was just messing round with them for fun.i would've emailed you otherwise :)
May. 6th, 2006 05:08 am (UTC)
Re: Benjamin
Yes, the arcades project is definitely fragmented, as, indeed are such works as "Theses on the Philosophy if History" which is really very beautiful, in its own way. Though the Arcades Project was never finished - am I right? - and Benjamin is wrong on many of those questions such as the liberatory value of mechanical reproduction of art, I think. But as part of that wider group - Adorno, Marcuse, Lukacs, Brecht - he's I think of tremendous significance. When, for example, people say "I don't understand why seventeen volume crap fantasy is published and not good stuff, I fell like saying: go read Adorno's The Culture Industry or shut up.

May. 6th, 2006 05:31 am (UTC)
Re: Benjamin
nah, THE ARCADES PROJECT was never finished. you can see hints of what it might have been in things such as paris in the 17 century, however. certainly, i always had the feeling that his ideas repeated often, as if they were working towards a final piece.

i've never read adorno's culture industry. book or essay?
May. 5th, 2006 11:27 pm (UTC)
That essay on Benjamin is here:


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