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...And the Start of this Blog.

Yell yell. Scream scream. Fuck you all, especially those who liked the idea of this being dead. I know you all. I hate you. I have restarted comments so you can leave your hate. This is the place holder. There is no content. This thing exists and you should check it in a week or so to see if there's dead space or not. No more notices, I assure. Either way I've become a true blogger on livejournal for I have shut down and restarted like a whiny punk. I say it so you do not.





This is my acknowledgment.

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benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:24 pm (UTC)
kinda like a suicide pact?
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benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:25 pm (UTC)
maybe next week.
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benpeek
Dec. 2nd, 2005 04:17 am (UTC)
what i like about this situation (basically, the only thing i like about this) is that you guys don't have any idea what to expect from me now. makes me think i've gotten a little boring.
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benpeek
Dec. 4th, 2005 02:31 am (UTC)
Frankly, I never know what to expect from LJ, let alone from YOU.

i suspect i've become predictable, myself.
(Anonymous)
Nov. 30th, 2005 07:21 am (UTC)
wahey!

in your absence, i've been spending too much time trawling for decent blogs to read

hope all goes well for version 2.0

j
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:27 pm (UTC)
i'm sure you'd fine something new. this is the net, after all. some porn star is bound to have a blog worth reading.
ataxi
Nov. 30th, 2005 07:30 am (UTC)
It's a LiveJournal. Any internet histrionics posted here are bound to look more manufactured even than they usually would.
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:28 pm (UTC)
so... next time pictures?
ataxi
Dec. 2nd, 2005 07:34 am (UTC)
Do a stop motion animation.

About 30% of LJ text is whining about things that are unexceptionally bad. Bad, but not so bad the readership can't collectively understand the horror of it. Bad but not torture or CID. After that, a good 5% of the total word count is preemptive striking about how what is about to be, is being or has just been written is whining about things that are unexceptionally bad. It's all too meta- after a while.

If you feel anxiety, stress, sorrow and anger then bitch and moan without qualification or fear. Let the world decide the worth of what you've written if that's the standard by which you choose to be measured, as an excess of preemptive striking, meta-talk, self-editing, self-consciousness and prevarication would tend to suggest.
benpeek
Dec. 3rd, 2005 05:50 am (UTC)
nah.

there are blogs and writers who do that, and whose writing is about exploring or presenting their personal life. my writing has never been about that. my personal life is just that. it'll remain that.
ataxi
Dec. 6th, 2005 12:27 am (UTC)
Not really what I meant. I was referring more to your comments around reopening the blog. Which I friended, what, a few days ago. So far it's been pretty entertaining.
bradav
Nov. 30th, 2005 08:48 am (UTC)
are they my shoes?
drjon
Nov. 30th, 2005 11:26 am (UTC)
Are they for sale? Can I buy them?
bradav
Nov. 30th, 2005 01:32 pm (UTC)
you gotta climb up to get them but
angriest
Nov. 30th, 2005 09:01 am (UTC)
Ha! You quit at quitting, you big quitter!!
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:34 pm (UTC)
do one thing, do another the next day. that's my way. but there's always next time for quitting.
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benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:35 pm (UTC)
what, and wear the suit?
punkrocker1991
Nov. 30th, 2005 10:22 am (UTC)
fuck, does that mean we have to cancel the party?
oh well, welcome back.
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:29 pm (UTC)
fuck, does that mean we have to cancel the party?

nah. there's always next time.
call_me_robert
Nov. 30th, 2005 10:58 am (UTC)
Bah! I was just working up my own angst over the end of your online presence, and here you are, back already! I damn near had that post to San Ass written, too. Good thing I checked here first.
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:30 pm (UTC)
you could always keep it in reserve?

anyhow, it was too good a thing for you to do for me, man. blogs are just blogs at the end of the day.
(Anonymous)
Nov. 30th, 2005 11:41 am (UTC)
It's not nice to do this to your lovely readers Ben, so I probably should have expected something like it.
Agnes
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:33 pm (UTC)
what amazes me is that people have kinda stuck round. still, i regret the pain to the pretty readers...

there's about two of them, i think ;)
bodhichitta0
Nov. 30th, 2005 12:36 pm (UTC)
Yay! Where else can I use the word cunt in my daily life and not be socially ostracized? :-D

See you in a week or so, Ben.
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:36 pm (UTC)
oh, i'm pretty sure you could find the word cunt being used all round.
simplykathryn
Nov. 30th, 2005 02:40 pm (UTC)
Wow, saved me emailing to say 'Nooooo.....'

Thank you.
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:36 pm (UTC)
no, thank you.
sonanova
Nov. 30th, 2005 03:22 pm (UTC)
Now you just need to ride the drama llama for a bit, starting a flame war with some fine folk you've never met over some dumb band you've never heard of:)
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:37 pm (UTC)
...hmm, something to do next week then.
(Anonymous)
Nov. 30th, 2005 03:50 pm (UTC)
You Big Ole Drama Queen
Ben:

Honestly, though--I was aghast when you said you were quitting. Love your blog. And you say things a lot of other people don't or won't. I thought maybe it was messing up your fiction writing for some reason and that's why you quit.

JeffV
benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:39 pm (UTC)
Re: You Big Ole Drama Queen
I thought maybe it was messing up your fiction writing for some reason and that's why you quit.

nah. if anything said blog has all been helpful for that. i guess if people don't like the blog and don't like the fiction cause of it, that is a problem, but i've yet to experience it. (i'm sure it happens, it's just that i don't get told about it.)

but no, it's just all drama.
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benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:39 pm (UTC)
you could have taken my spot!
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benpeek
Dec. 2nd, 2005 12:42 am (UTC)
it's pretty easy being me. just do what you need, ignore whatever gets in your way, and punch it if you gotta. mostly, just don't do nothing you don't want.

*looks at thesis*

maybe it's not so easy.
ceret
Dec. 1st, 2005 01:44 pm (UTC)
Peek spelled backwards is keeP, which seems a clear indication that you should continue your good work here and also Ben spelled backwards is neB, middle english for the nib of a pen. The nib is the most important part of a pen being the point of contact between the author and the world. Whatever you put here is important. Borrow or rob - it's the same either way you look at it.

The gematric value of the word benpeeksblog is 55. You may check this yourself at http://www.mysticalinternet.com/gematria/lookup.php?system=gon

Other combinations of letters that share this value are "A LIGHT SO STRENUOUS THAT - IT IS NOT PERCEIVED AS LIGHT," "CLOSE THE - GAP - BETWEEN US" and "BRING YOUR HEAD OUT - FROM WHERE - THE SUN DOESNT SHINE"

I don't know what else I can say to influence you. He that hath ears let him hear.

benpeek
Dec. 1st, 2005 10:40 pm (UTC)
er. is fifty five a good word value?
ceret
Dec. 1st, 2005 11:29 pm (UTC)
It's at least a palindrome.
benpeek
Dec. 2nd, 2005 12:43 am (UTC)
only if you list it as numbers, and we all know numbers don't count.
kieranmushroom
Dec. 2nd, 2005 09:33 am (UTC)
Good work man... I haven't been checking regularly, so I'm not sure what the context of all this is.

Anyway, nice to hear you're still online - this is one of the few LJs I check these days.

The only trouble with this livejournaling is it takes up so much damn time. It's like a second job. Which is why I stopped...
benpeek
Dec. 3rd, 2005 05:53 am (UTC)
there is no real context for this on the blog. it's just a personal thing and i needed the silence. i think maybe i still need the silence. the idea of reading other blogs at the moment makes me just feel pissed off and irritated. silence sounds good. the quiet in my head.

and yes, blogging does take up time. it has a few advantages though.
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