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If I Could Get A New Life I Would.





Phd review today.

It was short, simple, and pretty laid back. The kind of review you have when you arrive with a big yellow envelope that is your novel and academic dissertation, and on top of it the publications you've had this year. It gives the illusion of being someone who knows what he's doing instead of being tired and burnt out on just about everything related to it. This is what I call the I'm-Almost-Done-Feeling.

I said, "It'll be done by the end of February."

My Supervisor said, "We've until the end of March, at any rate."

That's the deadline and, assuming there are not huge fuck ups, I'll get it. I've no choice as I've no desire to pay the course fees, which is what'll happens if I fuck up. And after that, and assuming markers don't hate it, I'll be educated at a faintly ridiculous and useless level, and thus begin whatever new thing I decide is worth doing. Maybe I'll start reading tarot cards at the markets. Who knows. Whatever keeps me amused until I die, really.

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ironed_orchid
Nov. 7th, 2005 01:40 pm (UTC)
You sound much more relaxed than most people I know who have their deadline in sight.
benpeek
Nov. 7th, 2005 08:44 pm (UTC)
it's just a deadline. the world doesn't begin or end if i get it or not. and afterwards i'll be able to do something new. so: all good.

plus, i'm burnt out and beyond caring. heh.
ironed_orchid
Nov. 8th, 2005 03:57 am (UTC)
I'm pretty much beyond caring about my thesis, but I still like the teaching side of things - which apparently makes me something of a freak. So I just have to summon the enthusiasm to write another 50,000 words in the next 12 months and perhaps someone somewhere will hire me to teach for a while.
benpeek
Nov. 8th, 2005 04:20 am (UTC)
not that much of a freak. i like the teaching. it feeds my own writing in a positive way, i find.
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benpeek
Nov. 7th, 2005 11:06 pm (UTC)
sure, it sounds okay, until you realise it's seeping into every part of your life beyond it. 'what should you do this weekend?' 'don't care.' and so on and so forth.

thanks for the luck though.
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